Where have I been????

Hello to all who like to read my little blog. I have been away for quite some time and I think I am ready to devote much attention to my blog and Blue House. My dream for many years has been to create great products that people enjoy and to be able to earn some nice "pocket money." I also have a great desire to create a blog that touches and inspires. I also want to present my products since I am a capitalist.
Just a little background....my mother was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma during the spring of 2009. Being a widow for several years, Mom was terrified. Terrified at the thought of cancer and terrified that she would have to travel this difficult journey without her true love and best friend. I was terrified too because of what Mom was about to be force to endure.
Our family had never had to deal with cancer, so chemo, ports, and staging were only words we had heard from others. Now we were learning more than we ever imagined. I spent hours on-line learning about NHL. I also spent hours caring for my mom. My aunt traveled and spent weeks at a time with Mom on several occasions which was a gift to Mom and I. My brother lived out of state for much of her treatment and was able to offer words of encouragement over the phone.
Months were spent shopping for Mom, caring for animals, chemo treatments, hospital stays, dressing, grooming, talking, and loving. There were days I just wanted to run from my new responsibility, but most of the days I reminded myself that this was an honor to give back to my mom.
During the spring of 2010 we were somewhat encouraged and thought that Mom may finally make it into remission. We had what my brother called, "her Indian Summer." This was the time when Mom worked in her yard, painted a fence, cleaned house, took care of her animals, and felt some sense of normalcy. This was also a time when she shared almost every little tidbit about her life that she could think of to tell me. We were together almost daily during this wonderful time and she told me so much. She told me about her childhood, her marriages to both of my dads, her pets, her dreams and goals. This was the time I think I truly feel in love with my mom.
On September 1, 2010 we received the word that no treatments would help Mom and that there was nothing left to do. Mom and I went to her house, ate turkey sandwiches and cried. Mom wiped the tears from her eyes and got busy getting her affairs in order. By this time, my brother lived nearby and Mom frequently walked us through the house giving us instructions. She just wanted everything to be in order for my brother and I.
Mom passed away on September 18, 2010 in the very early morning hours. My brother and I were able to hold onto her as she took her last breath.
Mom was a believer in Christ and I know that she is now in heaven were there is no pain or worry. I believe that she is not missing me because the glory around her is so awesome. I believe she is just waiting and believing I should be showing up any time.
Life without your mom is very difficult. I have cried almost every day since she left me. Taking care of her home, animals, possessions, and affairs have been very sad and very difficult. I am now reaching the end of my duties and wondering what God has in store for me now.
So, in closing. The time is now to heal broken family relationships. The time is now to heal you relationship with our Lord. "No man comes into the Father's presence without belief in His son, Jesus."
All the best to you all.
Kelly